No more music! ... wait, WHAT??

My first love. Forever!
What would we be without music? There would be no people just smiling and listening to music, nothing to make you feel happy when you're alone. Nothing. Whoever started it... I just don't have any words to ... Oeh...
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Boredom.
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Laughter.
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*yawn*
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Thaughts.
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Singing.
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Smiles.
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*phew*
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It is weird how people can make you feel. If you're angry then you can forgive, tough at some point you think you never will, but when you're disappointed, then you're not mad, but it is a lot harder to forget about it. Hmm...
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End.

I wanna wreck my body

It was the day before yesterday. At least I think it was, don't know for sure. Anyways, I was riding my bike. It had been a boring day once again. I almost got hit by a car so I sort of got an energy boost and I decided to pay a visit to the windpark. It's about 2 km from my home. I went to one of the spinning things. There was a little stair. I rode down from there. It was sort of cool. (Lalalalalalalala lie lie lie... lalalalalalalala lie lie lie...) I listened to the song over and over again. It made me think of things to do. Fun things. I rode like a mad person. It was fun. I didn't care if I fell (don't worry, I didn't fall). I had no idea where I was but I just kept on going. I kind of knew in which direction I had to go. I was happy. It's good that my parents gave me a mountain bike, not an oldschool bike (the cool old bikes, you know... but I still want one). I'm pretty sure I'll do that again soon. Maybe even today.

Yesterday was cool. It's weird how we could just see each others taughts. We watched the clouds and we all saw the same things. It was very cool. And funny. I had so many ideas. I remember many of them and I thin I'm gonna draw them too. Maybe today, maybe tomorrow, not sure yet.
That's all I've got to say so I think this means goodbye :)

Fuck it!

They say that theres an ending to every good thing - and they're right.
I hate this feeling, it's even worse than the boredom... much more worse... This hate-love-anger-foolishness kind of feeling. I guess I just have to suffer my way through this. Why didn't you just tell me? Well... now you've kind of done it, point taken.

I hope the summer is still gonna be cool. At least I have my sister and some friends...

You know what, fuck it, it's not gonna change anything, I can do it! (Though I still think it's lame)

Bah

Hmm... my thoughts change so quickly... awkward...
I had a depression or something like that, but today I'm like another person. I woke up feeling cheerful, I wanted to go to school... It wasn't that bad. Today was a good day, especially after school when I went to play some football. It was fun though I kind of failed :D
jap, still.... fun!

Didn't mean it!

Music makes you lose control ... !!!

Yep, that's what they say... Music gives us something magnificent. It makes us feel free and happy... At least some music...
What I want to find in a song, is power, harmony, melody and the feeling... Ohh, it's just spectacular, what it can do to you.
It can make you cry, even if there arent any words, It can make you feel cheerful all day, even though it has simple words and they wouldn't make you feel different if you would read them from a book... And the harmony and melody relax you and make you wonder... And then there is the power... Even if it's not loud and screaming, there is just something... It makes you feel, that the world isn't only school, work, dirty streets and boredom, but there is also magic, wonders and the brighter side of life... Even if the song is sad, you can feel it...
There is a song, which is very powerful and also sad... Me and my sister often listened to it in the summer while we watched the sun go down... We didn't speak a lot, because it was just so magical... Unfortunately we only had her phone and it had a bad quality so it didn't give the full effect but it was still beautiful...
I know the song thanks to a very good friend of mine... Her name is Eva... She is an original and peculiar person with great ideas and personality... Sadly, I haven't been communicating with her a lot lately... We had a bit of a ... um...disagreement. We didn't speak to each other for some time... But just lately we went to a café and we're gonna be friends again in no time... I think she and my sister are the greatest friends I have had and I'm happy for that and it's a luck that I have them because there are so many people who I try to avoid...
Well, but everybody don't have to match with each other and like everyone... Okay, I have been over that at least a thousand times already... Jap... :)

So...here I go then...

I search faults in other people a lot... But why? Is it to make myself feel better when I know that the others make mistakes too? No, I don't think so... even if it is because of that, then I don't do it on purpose - maybe it's in my subconsciousness? Maybe ... unlikely.
I find faults in myselt too, but I have been thinking about them a lot and I found it unimportant so I haven't written about it...
But maybe I should.
One of my biggest flaws is that I jugde people before I get to know them. They say that first impression is right the most times... But I have been proven differently though I can't say that the saying is completely wrong... To be honest, it mostly is like that.. but then again... I haven't gotten to know the people properly so I can't say...
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I whine so much... about my acquaintances and uncaring people who only think about themselves and annoy me... But what if I get so upset and disappointed about my thoughts.. make them too big a deal and turn up like the ones I have been talking about? No. I will never be like them! That's against my principles! Oh...
I have many other fail spots, but they appear in my behavior and life, not in my thoughts... so they can be changed more easily...
In my thoughts there are also more faults what I would not like to write...